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My life.

It has been awhile since I posted. That really is nothing new. The new part about it is why I haven't posted in what seems like forever. Typically I wouldn't post because I was just too lazy. Now my life has gotten me legitimately busy and leaves me no time. So here I am posting to tell you about my life. Josh and I successfully are back at my moms house. It was such a relief to be able to catch up on some debts that we haven't been able to handle since his horrid pay cut. In the midst of moving and all that I was offered a great job. I barely had to interview and they would pay me really well. It was hard to leave Amelia but I have to be honest when I say I love my job and really missed working full time like this. Honestly between my job, being organized, unpacking, trying to be a better daughter and clean my mom's house more often that has kept more than busy. I fill like I have nothing to say and report back on even after my long absence. I will post some halloween pics soon though. Amelia was just so darn cute in her costume!

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Do you ever just feel like screaming?

Cause I certainly do. This past month I have had so many days where I just wanted to scream. First, way back in August, our car broke down. We were told by a mechanic shop it was our alternator and it would cost 600 bucks. Cough Cough blow to the gut there. Ya right I can't afford that! So we found another mechanic who said 300 than had my grandpa get a used part for us and my brother put it in. Hooray! Not so much, on our way to Ogden it broke down. Turned out there was a fried battery wire causing all our problems. 120 dollars later car runs fine. That was my first few scream worthy days.

Next, Josh's boss freaked out on him and told him he no longer had a job. Well crap. After stressing all day she called and apologized for losing it and told him he still had a job. Good my scream day ended. We went to Victor for Labor Day weekend and had loads of fun.

Tuesday after Labor Day Josh has to meet with his boss. She gives him the option of stepping down as manager or they will do it for him. So now we are back to crap. This means Josh has taken a huge paycut. Scream Scream Scream

Than peach days came which meant the peach queen pageant. I stressed stressed stressed than scream scream scream again. That was over just meant I could go back to the job thing. Aggh, so now we are scraping pennies (even more), begging my mom to let us come live with her again (no response yet), and praying for any job of any sort to help!!

Now that you have got to hear my screaming I am going to share my pictures that I promise have no screaming in them..... well i think not anyways I can't say for certain on Amelia.

I should post shouldn't I?

I have the cutest little blue eyed babe in the world and should be showing her off yet it's been forever since I posted! I am in trouble with some grandmas.......... good thing I am better at facebook.

Well we have had one crazy month. We spent lots of weekends in Idaho. We went to Victor for the 4th of July and Josh's high school reunion. It was just too much fun who on earth wanted to come back to reality? Afterwards I went to Pocatello for Relay for Life Fundraisers. I had been making bows like crazy to sell for Relay I swear my thumbs were bleeding. Then we went back up to Pocatello for the actual event. It was way fun, Exhausting, but fun. My most recent adventure was going with my mom to Provo while she had a conference. It was such a blast hanging out with my sister's in law during the day. We made hair bows (I just can't get enough)and just had all out fun. My mom's conference paid for our meals and we even got to go see "Annie get your guns". I spent time shopping at the DI and getting the best ever clearance sales. The only problem with that is that you can get lots of things for cheap but you still can spend lots of money, it just feels more justified. Now this is not all that is going on but I feel I have shared my piece and am going throw in an overload of pictures sooooooo.... ENJOY!!

Never Ending Drama.......

Story of my life. I have lots of drama, not in the high school "I-hate-you-for-stealing-my-boyfriend" kind of drama. But real life hard core drama. In the long run it just means I have more stories to tell so I guess I will take that as a good thing. Anyways, back to my drama of the day....

I had my 6 week post-partum checkup today. No worries I am healthy. In fact I have lost 30 pounds since Amelia was born, yay for me :). Sorry I keep getting off track, back to the drama. First thing when my doctor gets there is he tells me to come look at my chart and the placenta test results that came back. He says "look at this you had an infarct" a what? I swear it sounded like some other word. Well apparently I had an infarction of my placenta. A blood clot had formed at some earlier point in my pregnancy and stopped blood flow to a big chunk of the placenta and killed it. I was in shock. My doctor goes on and on about how lucky we are that baby is here safe and sound yadi yadi yada. Holy crow, I am sooooooooooo relieved today more than ever. After google-ing blood clots and infarctions we are truly blessed Amelia was born full term alive and healthy. I know I shouldn't worry about what the doc. said but I am just really disturbed by what could have been.

On a side note some stinking German dude started rubbing and filing my nails and making them looking all pretty and nice today at the mall. Somehow all that led to me buying a jar of expensive lotion. One day that German dude will get what he deserves for giving me mini mani and making me spend money I just don't have to spend.... Errgggg

Cutest Socks Ever!

I have an addiction to a particular brand of baby socks called trumpettes. They are ridiculously expensive but incredibly cute. I have had a hard time finding them in Utah, typically they are sold back east, I could get them online but I never want to pay for shipping. Well I went into a cute boutique store in Ogden yesterday and my awesome husband pointed out that they sold trumpettes there!! (hooray, even though I am sure he wished he kept that to himself after I bought a box of socks heeehe). So anyways I am excited to have some new trumpette socks that Amelia can wear.

Love this little babe!!

Amelia is getting so big! Here are some adorable pictures. (If you think otherwise, keep it to yourself!!)

Somehow I made it......

I have felt very emotional over the last few weeks. I had a healthy baby girl who is growing and melts my heart. At the same time I can't help but think of the baby I lost just a year ago. We drive thru the cemetery often and it brings a semblance of peace knowing I ache for something real. As Adalyn's one year birthday came and went I was sad and lonely. I was in Idaho without Josh and though I had a great time it is only him who I can share my grief entirely with. She was the little angel I don't get to see grow and get big. I want everyone to know about that first child of mine yet I don't want to open myself to all the questions and pity. I hoped to do so many things in honor of her this year. I read a book that the family had a little celebration each year on the birthday of the baby that had died. I so wanted to do that. I wanted to plant a huge flower garden full of pansies and petunias, but because I am recovering physically and financially from having a baby I didn't do that either.

All of these things I wanted to do seem somehow insignificant when I realize I made it. I made it thru the hardest year of my life. I recovered from losing a child. I still grieve and I can admit right now that I am crying while I type this. My grief goes on and yet I am still making it. I am not typically a share all but I felt compelled to write this and tell those around me my grief is minimal compared to the joy I find in knowing that Adalyn is eternally mine and one day I will be able to be with her again and watch her grow as I do my little baby now.

Pictures!!

We took Amelia's newborn photos this week and they turned out so precious.








Amelia also endured her first bath. I still don't know if she knows what exactly to think about it.

As promised...

I have now been out to the cemetery so here are the pics of Adalyn's headstone. I love it, it is sooooo pretty.

She is Here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Amelia Jean Woolstenhulme was born May 12th, 2010 weighing in at 7 pounds 5 ounces and measuring 19 and 1/2 inches.



It was a long day for us while we waited for her to get here. We checked into the hospital at 4:30 am and after a few scares and a prep for an emergency c-section I was able to deliver her on the operating table naturally. (big relief.)




We already love this little girl so much and the funny things she does. We can't decided who she looks like more, mostly I see Josh but than I can see me too. She laughs in her sleep, so adorable, scratches her throat like her mama (don't ask why I do that I get it from my dad). She had her first check up today and she has gained 6 oz., the doctor says it usually takes 2 weeks for a baby to get back to their birth weight so she is very healthy. Hopefully it means I will have a chunky baby, love little chunky babies (who doesn't!!)



On a side note Adalyn's headstone is up and I am going to go over to the cemetery later today and will take some pictures to post.

Ya shouldn't of said that.....

On Friday I had a NST as usual. Everything went great and my doctor came in to the hospital before I left to check on me. I had been having some contractions and he decided to throw out there that he was on call all weekend and really wouldn't be surprised to see me come in this weekend in labor. Now why do you say that to a anxious pregnant woman? Really?

After having mild contractions all day Saturday I had some other problems come up Saturday night. So Josh and I headed to the hospital. Everything I thought was wrong turned out to be okay but the baby's heartrate was far too high and wasn't coming down. So my doctor decided I better stay overnight. Because I was having contractions I was checked to see if I was dialated. Sure enough I was! Only to a 2, but for being 2 and 1/2 weeks away from my actual due date that wasn't too bad. After 3 hours the baby's heart rate finally calmed down to her normal baseline, what a relief. All night the nurses kept telling me that the doctor would probably just decide to induce me in the morning and get my labor really going along. Especially considering that I was contracting and dialating. Well as you probably guessed he didn't induce and I am still very pregnant, very hormonal, and very ready to have this baby!

I know it is all about being safe, but it was one long night of watching monitors and seeing all these different things not being good (not to mention the contractions) I really thought we would be having a baby. Such a bummer.

Finished

We finished the dresser. All I have to do now is add the knobs.

Setting the date.

I decided I should blog mainly because it feels like the appropriate thing to do! I have had a pretty good last few days. I have no energy but I still feel like getting things done. This is probably in connection with the baby being scheduled to be born next Wednesday, May 12th. I am so ecstatic. Only a week left!!! I am excited to hold her and all that comes with that but my biggest relief is to be done with pregnancy. It has been extremely hard on me and my body is about one thread away from unraveling completely. The newest symptom I have developed is intense insomnia. Some nights I am only getting an hour or two of sleep others I am not sleeping at all. Like last weekend, the night before my baby shower in Pocatello, I was awake the entire night. Finally around 10 am on Saturday I slept until 12 pm. That was such a relief!! Especially since I needed to find some energy for all my friends and family that I was about to see. The shower turned out really great and I am so grateful I have family that love me enough to throw me one.

I think I am all ready for this baby to come. Josh and I found a place to move into and we can start moving in next week. We are both excited to get back into a space of our own (and if you have a couch or two we could borrow until I get my new ones the beginning of June that would be super). Josh sanded down a dresser we were given that was pretty beat up and today we have been painting it for the baby's room. I figure I will have everything ready to go so that while I am in the hospital next week all our loving family and friends can transfer our stuff from my mom's (and our storage bay) to our new digs. I will post pics of the dresser when I get it all done!!

Fulfilling my promises

I promised to upload some pictures so here they are :) Some of the convention and cupcakes, a cake for my little bro's b-day (don't look too close), a picture of me and my mother in law at my baby shower, and my favorite bridal pic of my little sister who is getting married tomorrow. So really here is pictures to go with my last few pots. ENJOY!!

Just a Zap.....

Today was weird. The weather was funky, sunny and rainy, than just sunny, than pouring. No single weather description for the day. I had to work and got some projects done and it was pretty relaxing. But the weirdest thing for me was my doctor's appointment this morning. I went in for an ultrasound and had to sit and wait for the baby to move enough so I could get a good score this time. After the tech pestered her for a few minutes she finally moved a little bit. I am sure she was sleeping I mean it was 9 am why wouldn't she be? So we passed the ultrasound this week but only just barely. After the ultrasound I had an NST. And once again she was being a little lethargic and not moving much so after about 15 minutes the nurse came in and told me she was just going to give her a little zap. A zap? What the crap does that mean? Well its this little thing that vibrates on my stomach and wakens the baby. And it sure does wake up the baby, I think she jumped from my uterus to Texas and back. After the initial shock she stopped moving again so they zapped her again! This time she stayed moving the rest of my NST, so she was just being stubborn and lazy. But how weird is it that they actually "zapped" my baby. It just feels so inhumane. Hopefully she doesn't develop PTSD from this experience............

Long. Long. Week.

I am sitting here awake at 5 in the morning. If anyone who knows me knows that 9 am feels early to me than I am guessing I have your pity. Now I don't know why I can't sleep yesterday or today but I might as well update the world on my life.

For the exciting news yesterday was the county Republican convention. My mom is running for County Clerk and had to get 60% last night in order to beat her competitor and not have to go to a primary. Well.......... she did it!! Yay. She won by 85% which was a county record. Because no other party affiliations filed she has little campaigning to do before the general election (where she will be the only name on the ballot) and in January she will take office. I am so happy for her but maybe more happy for myself because it is all over. I was getting worn out from helping her in her campaign. I made 21 dozen cupcakes for the convention and they were a huge hit. Now if my camera weren't up the stairs I would post pics. (sorry that is my laziness)

As for the weekly doctor visit, let me tell you it was a roller coaster ride this week. I was sent in for my regular appointment on Tuesday and was supposed to get a special ultrasound but they canceled it on Monday than when I got to the hospital for my NST on Tuesday they decided to go ahead and do it anyways. Okay, that worked for me. In this ultrasound it needed to last 30 minutes while they checked the baby for certain things. In that time the baby needed to move so much, practice breathing, change heartrate, etc... At the end of the 30 minutes the baby gets a score out of 10 with 8 being a passing score. So we finished up in radiology than went over to labor and delivery for my 45 minute NST. Two and half hours later I was still being monitored told I needed to stay until my doc. got there and that was it.

It was more nerve racking not knowing why I was stuck there than anything else. I finally called my doctor's office wanting any information on what was going on. The nurse told me that the doc. was coming over to talk to me because the baby scored a 6 on her ultrasound and he wanted me to see a perinatologist. Darnit. I have had to do the whole perinatologist thing before and trust me not having one this time meant great things. Needless to say I start panicking. Doc. came in a few minutes later and told me the baby had scored low due to lack of movement. Serious? I had been feeling her move for the last 2 hours how can this wiggle worm inside me be lacking movement. Jeez. He told me he wasn't too worried about it but because I had bad history he wanted me to see the perinatologist anyways, immediately.

So Josh and I trecked down to McKay-Dee and saw the perinatologist who checked her all out and determined she was still healthy and just to count her movements (pff, like I am not already)!! By 4 pm I had been at the hospital for almost 6 hours. So exhausting but I am thankful for watchful doctors who worry about me and my baby and don't take anything to lightly.

I am realizing now what a long post this is but I just have sooooooo much more to say. Probably my favorite part of this last week was getting new things. I got my carseat and stroller on Monday and as explained before I didn't have to pay for it. After doing a thorough examination of my seat and stroller I officially love it. I also ordered myself this baby bath tub called a puj tub. It was ridiculously expensive for a baby bath tub but it looked so awesome in parenting magazine I had to have it. Bonus on that too because I used some left over babies r' us gift cards to buy it too!! Schweet. Than I used another gift card to buy new sheets. I absolutely love sheets and good sheets at that. I had a gift card and bought myself and Josh some divine egyptian cotton sheets (now all I am thinking about is being back in bed in my amazing sheets). But perhaps the biggest new thing I am looking forward to is my Cricut. Yes I said Cricut! I found it on ebay for 40 dollars and am impatiently waiting for it to get here. I am going to Cricut my heart away the minute it arrives!!!!

Being Big...

Had another Doc. appointment on Wednesday. Everything is still going super fab. I am measuring at 35 weeks though. Which in its own way is a huge relief, after weeks of nightmares of going into labor early it is nice to know that it would be completely okay if I did!!

I have spent the last couple nights out on the town with my mom working with her in her campaign. Politics sure are interesting, I like to go and hear what candidates have to say but at the same time I find it all a dirty practice. It is hard for me to think that some people really do think less of you if you are a democrat or vice versa. I never thought that political party affiliation made or broke a person. At least I don't have to always play in the political field and I can get over all the seedy comments people make. Keep wishing my mom luck and if you haven't already become a fan of her political profile page on facebook!!!

Results

I decided I should blog about what they found out about my sugar problems. Because I am sure there are millions out there that are just waiting in anticipation, heehee ya right. But for those of you who do read this I am going to give you good news and let you know my sugar levels came back normal. Not sure why I was spilling sugar in my urine but Doc. says it doesn't matter as long as my blood levels are good. YAY. I go in again tomorrow for my weekly tests. Hopefully they go by reasonably quickly.

On a positive note for me I was able to get my carseat and stroller. I have been eyeing a set for 3 months now but it was just sooooo ridiculously expensive. Leave it to me to want the most expensive one. Anyways so it kept going on and off decent sales and than the price kept dropping and dropping so I knew it was going to get clearanced out but I still didn't have money for that right now. Well little blessing for me came in disguise of the republican party. Most of you know that my mom is running for election to County Clerk. After the caucus night last Tuesday they had to enter in all the names of delegates and attendees that were there. Unfortunately for the republican party all the peeps who usually do this are all running for election and conflict of interest says they can't be involved. Which left me, daughter of a famous politician (heehee) with lots of free time to put in these 500 names of attendees. After spending 3 days on my project I turned the papers in and they gave me a gift card in appreciation. Not just any gift card but a gift card to cover the price of my stroller/carseat completely!! Yay for blessings. So now I have ordered it and it should be here on Monday. I may find a doll and take it on walks around the block just to break in the stroller before baby gets here..........

Ahh crap.......

That is what this week has felt like, just a long big sigh of "ahhhh crap". I had my weekly appointment with my doctor on Wednesday and am happy to report that after my NST (non-stress test) the baby was declared super well and healthy! Hooray for baby. I was not soo healthy, this is where my ahh crap comes in, I had an infection. And some sugar spilling in my urine, whatever the crap that means. So after getting lectured on why I still haven't gone in to take my glucose test my doctor made me swear I would go do it. So that was what I went to do today. I did the 8 hour fast and went in and drank the nasty drink....... than I puked it right back up. Darn. So I get to fast again and eat jelly beans instead. I hate jelly beans. Hopefully after I down those the test will say the sugar problem is a fluke and I don't have gestational diabetes.

On a bright note I am having a baby shower tomorrow. Hooray. I am very excited and totally looking forward to it!!

My latest endeavor!!

All week I have been working on a project for the unborn babe. I stole the idea from Josh's cousin and just tweaked it a little. I love the colors I picked out for her nursery and think this will fit right in............








So in love with it, being completely vain but who cares? It's stinking cute!!

The importance of today....

I don't know if anyone realized but at midnight tonight New Moon is being released on dvd. I could tell you I am excited but if I am taking the time to write about it on my blog I suppose my excitement is fairly obvious!!! Woohoo :)

Doctor visit.

I went to my doctor today for my weekly routine visit, which now include non-stress tests. Turns out he didn't have me do a stress test but some other long named test that requires me to sit in a super comfy recliner for 30 minutes. (painful right) Well this test monitored the baby's movements and heartbeat and typically would monitor my contractions but doc. felt it was not needed today. I was at the doctor for an hour and a half for this one little test! He warned me from here on out to plan to spend 3 to 4 hours each week at the doctor's. Makes me really grateful I never did find that full time job. Anyways, getting off-track here, these 4 hours are going to consist of the following tests (and I have no idea what they are really called, this is just my interpretation): first i have to do a non-stress test which they do over at the hospital, than i go to doc.'s for my fetal tracking whatever, than from there I will have an ultrasound, following that doc. needs to do tests to make sure I have the correct amount of amniotic fluid, and lastly some bio-physical makeup thing which I am still not sure what that is.

So this will be my Wednesday activity from here on out. If anyone has some good reading material suggestions I will take it, seeing as I will be sitting strapped to monitors a few hours every Wednesday!!

Keeping up.

I feel like I have finally gotten on top of all the things I say I am going to do and than I look around and realize that what may be done is nowhere near what needs to be done. It's all about keeping up in my life. I feel that if I can just wish it I can have it, if only wishes were fishes... ya ya I know.

On a sidenote I am working again. Not much just 3 days a week at the local scrapbook store. It has been alot of fun so far and great for me to be out doing something again. Josh's work has him running all over and tied up so much that he has become my little workaholic. That is fine as long as by May they let him slow down a little. We went to Josh's brother and his wife's baby blessing, well rather we found the place in time to have the sacrament. Sorry guys we really really tried to be there!! Then last Sunday my sister had her baby blessed. It has been a crazy couple of weeks and I am glad for a day off, how lame is that? I am too exhausted to be working full time so I am glad that I won't ever be asked to!!

I go to the Doctor weekly now, which doesn't feel like much of a change because I swear I have already been going weekly for something or other. We are just running tests and checking on baby often, everything still seems to be going okay. I start my non-stress tests next week and depending on how those go I may be up to going twice a week to the Doctor. It is a good thing everybody at the Doctor's office is very friendly or I would be one irritated grumpy lady!!!

The funniest thing I hear lately is when people tell me that I must be so tired of being pregnant. I want to laugh and say "really? ya think?" it's one of those questions that seems obvious to me! Hopefully my manners can last another 8 weeks.



This basically shows my exact daily sentiments.

Bow-nanza!!

I have been filling my time this last week by making bows. I started late Saturday night and have been going crazy since. My sister has got in on the action with me so I have a hobby buddy now. I have had to work really hard on Josh to like bows on baby girls, specifically our upcoming baby girl, and he is actually excited for it now that he can see my lovely creations.




You can see the lighting is terrible and I had a hard time getting my prego belly out of the pictures but all in all I think my bows are pretty cute!!