I have avoided posting for 3 months..... These reasons could be- I'm lazy- I'm busy- and we just aren't all that exciting. But here I go I am going to post our exciting life these past 3 months. Josh and I have been slaving away at our jobs, it seems to take up far more time than we ever expected. Around the end of September we came to the conclusion that we needed some change in our life. That change turned out to be a move to Utah. Josh found a job down here and will be starting around the middle of December. I am still looking for a job and will be staying in Pocatello until the end of the year. One of the benefits to being in Utah will be being so much closer to my OB. Yup, I am pregnant again. I am considered high risk so I have an OB in Utah that is very familiar with my type of case. I loved my previous OB but Pocatello, in general, has its limitations when it comes to perinatal care. We expect that we may be able to find out the gender on our next appointment, which is December 14th. It all depends on how developed the baby is so we will see. If not I have an appointment two weeks after that where they will do a full ultra-sound measuring baby from top to bottom. Little nerve wracking considering the history we have had...... But many many people have assured me all will be well, for now I am relying on their hope alone.
For thanksgiving we went to Utah for the Larsen family, this is Josh's extended family on his mom's side. Because the dinner wasn't until Friday Josh's parents came to our house and we had our own little dinner on Thursday. Deanne was great and showed me how to make a turkey, and was kind enough to take out all the nasty parts and get her hands dirty, not exactly what I would be very good at being so sensitive in sight and smell......
Really for a 3 month absent that is all I have to update on. Just wish us luck in our move and finding me a job. I am hoping to drop down to part time just to ease my stress load a little bit. Now because it is December I am officially going to start a Christmas countdown!! Only 21 days left!
P.S. I am also going to post a poll for all those who would like to take a guess at our baby's gender!
December 4, 2009
September 2, 2009
Just a blog...
I decided that I am just going to blog. Some may read or some may not but I don't care. I feel like ever since Addie died I am trying to find different things to blog about. Last night I finally came to the conclusion that why should I? She is what I think about constantly, she is who I am now. So I guess anyone who reads this will have to bear with me and read about Addie.
It's true that our lives our so busy right now. It is only Wednesday, but by the end of the day Josh will have already worked 30 hours. I often wonder if we are busy for a reason, perhaps maybe to keep me distracted from my continuous thoughts of my daughter? I still know it was her time to go but knowing that doesnt make it any easier to liver without her. Did you know it has been 3 months since we buried her? 3 months!! That is a 1/4 of a year. I have already survived 25% of this "first year" amazing and ridiculous all at the same time. Three months ago I was still pregnant, Josh was still just a lowly worker, and I still had my gall bladder. That is just the tip of the list, I am sure it could go on and on.
I decided that I want to establish a fund or foundation of sorts in honor of Addie. I will call it the Adalyn Grace Foundation. I have no idea how I would go about doing this but I know I want to do it. The main purpose for this foundation would be to provide for other grieving parents of stillborns or early infant death. I know every time I go visit her grave I see all the other babies there that have little sticks for markers, seeing Addie's little plaque is hard but I know she will get her headstone in a month or so. We had so much help from our families that made it possible to have a beautiful graveside service and proper burial. I want that for the other people out there who don't have such a strong support system. So all in all I want a resource available to those families to be able to get headstones instead of markers, to be able to have beautiful burial clothes, and pretty little caskets with sprays on them. Each baby that is laid to rest in that cemetary is so special and they deserve to have the best.
I guess those are my thoughts, and I know that right now we are not in the place to be starting a fund for that but it is definitely in my ten year plan! (And yes I really have a ten year plan)
It's true that our lives our so busy right now. It is only Wednesday, but by the end of the day Josh will have already worked 30 hours. I often wonder if we are busy for a reason, perhaps maybe to keep me distracted from my continuous thoughts of my daughter? I still know it was her time to go but knowing that doesnt make it any easier to liver without her. Did you know it has been 3 months since we buried her? 3 months!! That is a 1/4 of a year. I have already survived 25% of this "first year" amazing and ridiculous all at the same time. Three months ago I was still pregnant, Josh was still just a lowly worker, and I still had my gall bladder. That is just the tip of the list, I am sure it could go on and on.
I decided that I want to establish a fund or foundation of sorts in honor of Addie. I will call it the Adalyn Grace Foundation. I have no idea how I would go about doing this but I know I want to do it. The main purpose for this foundation would be to provide for other grieving parents of stillborns or early infant death. I know every time I go visit her grave I see all the other babies there that have little sticks for markers, seeing Addie's little plaque is hard but I know she will get her headstone in a month or so. We had so much help from our families that made it possible to have a beautiful graveside service and proper burial. I want that for the other people out there who don't have such a strong support system. So all in all I want a resource available to those families to be able to get headstones instead of markers, to be able to have beautiful burial clothes, and pretty little caskets with sprays on them. Each baby that is laid to rest in that cemetary is so special and they deserve to have the best.
I guess those are my thoughts, and I know that right now we are not in the place to be starting a fund for that but it is definitely in my ten year plan! (And yes I really have a ten year plan)
August 22, 2009
Busy.... Busy... Busy
A quick update on our life. It has been hectic. I had my gall bladder taken out the first of the month, at the same time work was up for recertification from the state. All in all such a bad week to have to take time off! Good news though, was my staff passed. Which is a good sign I am doing my job. The same week I had surgery my brother Alex came to stay with us. I was a little worried that he would add strain to the recovery for me but he was such a huge help! He made me lunch, granted it was only mac n' cheese, he picked things up for me and always gave me a turn to pick a tv show. Which for any 9 year old giving up cartoon network is a big thing, especially him.
Josh also got a new calling, he is now going to be in the Elder's quorum presidency as the secretary. We spent a few days wondering what the stake could want with us, turns out that was it! Josh is really excited for the change and looking forward to the blessings that could come from this.
We both are starting classes up this fall, for Josh it was the plan all along, but for me it is just a little adjustment to the twist in our life. I am excited to be getting back in after my time off! Well wish us luck!! (We'll need it lol)
Josh also got a new calling, he is now going to be in the Elder's quorum presidency as the secretary. We spent a few days wondering what the stake could want with us, turns out that was it! Josh is really excited for the change and looking forward to the blessings that could come from this.
We both are starting classes up this fall, for Josh it was the plan all along, but for me it is just a little adjustment to the twist in our life. I am excited to be getting back in after my time off! Well wish us luck!! (We'll need it lol)
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